Encountering a Trickster. What I Learned From the Experience
It was late at night. I was restless. A situation was eating at me, I tossed in bed then finally did what any irked witch would do…. I grabbed my tarot cards, my pendulum, and I connected with Lilith.
I was mulling over an admittedly juvenile strategy in my mind. You know, the stupid ideas that seem brilliant when you’re fourteen… backfire… but then you think they’ll work as an adult? That was the vibe. I asked Lilith about the outcome if I let my shadow take the wheel… I was expecting to be put in my place. All of the cards indicated a desired outcome.
Something felt off…
I took to my pendulum and began asking Lilith questions only she would know the answer to. She was answering incorrectly. I was not connecting with Lilith.
After the initial ‘ick’ feeling, I went to clearing my space, I grounded. Now I felt the more mature, soothing yet strong energy fill the room. I went back to asking Lilith questions only she would know the answer to. This went on for a good while. (Witch tip, your ancients and deities want you to receive the correct guidance. The level of energy they must use to convey messages is great, your receiving the correct information matters to the ancients. A legitimate spirit will never become upset or impatient when you question their motives or identity. Even the actual ‘trickster’ gods, really just want you to look at a situation from every single angle. They deceive on purpose so you are forced to think harder until you reach the correct conclusion.)
My home is heavily warded. My magical hygiene is thorough. My ritual work is free spirited, but I am highly meticulous when It comes to safety. Unwelcome or unidentified spiritual activity is an extremely rare occurrence in my house and surrounding property.
As I became more calm and worked with the ‘real’ Lilith, I received the proper insights and wisdom concerning my current situation. As we had a wonderful flow in the ritual, I asked, ‘How did the trickster spirit get in?’
The answer to this was simple, yet profound.
‘It was the energy within yourself made manifest.’
When I think of trickster spirits I think of actual spirits. Either gods, archetypes, or parasitic entities. I did not think I was my own trickster. But… It made perfect sense. If the universe is contained within me, of course the trickster can scamper within… leaving it to enter my space… as It is a part of me. I was embodying an archetype.
Being a shadow worker, I decided to look past my annoyance at feeling deceived… albeit by myself… I remembered this is how the trickster is described in Jungian terms;
“The trickster is an alchemist, a magician, creating realities in the duality of time and illusion. He exists to question, to cause us to question not accept things blindly. He appears when a way of thinking becomes outmoded, needs to be torn down, built anew.”
Thinking upon it, this is exactly what occurred as I connected with Lilith that night. I was feeling unsettled and rebellious. The method to which I had to find my ‘truth’ was not through meditation, stillness, and grounding. No… I had to lie to myself first and then let my higher self guide me to the truth of the matter. I had to question, I felt icky, I had to stop the ritual and clear… It was a messy night. But It had a beautiful outcome. I was calm and clear by the end.
Ultimately. This is what I learned. We cannot protect and ward ourselves from what resides within us already. Sometimes what arises is not ‘ideal’ at the moment, but it is necessary for growth. I learned to keep giving myself the freedom to let my magic and my healing… be messy and chaotic. Here is where one finds their true will.
